I've been thinking, dreaming, and envisioning what's to come for a long time. Today marks four weeks of having the ability to stand up in my chair, and I can't be more excited about what I've accomplished so far. In that short time, I've been privileged to experience events like the golf outing, spending time with family up north, and walking around the auto show from a perspective that I never thoroughly enjoyed because my paralysis occurred before my body fully developed. For me, the most exciting moments have been everyday things. Standing and going shopping, ordering food at a counter, or being at the high-top table at a restaurant with friends, and having a more intimate experience with everyone I come across. At first, it was nerve-racking and scary being up close and personal, but after doing it a few times, I feel comfortable again.
Since my injury, I've felt destined to do something great, and it's terrified me. You've heard me say I will walk a million times. I can feel it. Yet it doesn't make the feat any less daunting. I think I'm finally at a point in my life where the thought of it doesn't scare me. I see it like one of those old-school metal merry-go-rounds at playgrounds. I'll never understand how those human missile death traps were ever allowed for children. Nonetheless, it's a good representation of my life right now. I see life flying by in front of my eyes. As each handle, aka metal beam of pain, passes by. All I have to do is let go of my fear, jump, get a grasp, and hold on tight. It may hurt, and I may even fall or bounce right off the first few tries, but once I'm on, I'll be able to kick and give it all the momentum I can.
Right now, I'm shopping for physical therapy and rehabilitation centers. As I get stronger with standing for long periods, I am looking for a skilled, knowledgeable, open-minded therapist with the same drive and determination to achieve my goals. I'll have been paralyzed as long as I walked in two years. In these two years, I will block out all the negativity, fear, or anything else in my way and walk despite my paralysis.
I can't wait to share this journey with you. As always, I love every one of you. Keep #PUSHing